What do I do?

Holy shit. I can’t take it anymore. It’s unbearable and verging obsessive now. You have taken over my mind like some disease. Or many a drug that takes my life over. I am addicted. But this isn’t bad. It’s only bad because I haven't had the courage to talk to you yet. You have taken over my mind. And I know it’ll stop if I talk to you. But I can’t. Your silence, your shyness, it intimidates me more than anything else in the world. More than any outgoing guy that could not be any sexier. Maybe I am infatuated by the prospect of who you are.  But when you walk into a room, you’re all I see. Everything else is a blur, all out of focus. The aperture in my eyes are large, nothing is in focus expect you. I wonder what goes on through your mind. You seem purposeful in life. You also just hang out. I wonder if those moments where you catch me staring mean anything. I wonder if you know, because I really feel like you do. I don’t think I could be any more obvious without saying the words themselves. At the same time, I am not asking you to come here right now. I don’t expect that at all. I know its not that I am not good enough.  So what do I do? This love keeps me happy. It keeps me hopeful. It makes me believe in tomorrow. But what do I do? I am so utterly hung up on you, and I have no idea what to do. The solution seems so simple.  But I am so scared; your silence scares me. I am stuck. What do I do?